World Youth Day

The best thing I want to do right now is join World Youth Day. To be honest I’m just interested on this since a week ago. I had been know about this, but deep in my heart always says “Its imposibble Ana to join that” so that hope was gone.

After God calling me, and I saw how awesome World Youth Day is. A few days before I’m always updating my self with news about World Youth Day and I says on my heart : This is what I need for,and this is what I wanted for.

The next world youth day will be held on Krakow,Poland on July 2016. I ‘m trying searching info from my country who will go there, I want to get the information and luckily I had the news today.

Thanks Lord

but *deep breath* the news is make me confused and panicked. Its about the cost to get there.

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Yes I’m work – I get my salary full but to be honest I have so much responsibility to paid that and this. The cost to get WYD 2016 on Poland begin with USD $100/month . Its easy and helpfull actually, but for saving with that number – I feel give up , I feel “oh God – its impossible”. I still try to find another side job than my primary job.

To be honest, right now I feel confused, Should I join this World youth day? deep in my heart still said yes but my logic thinking said “with What? and how”

Nothing impossible with God – I believe that. Right now I’m just need asking to my heart and asking guide from Holy Spirit to the answer. I should ask the reason why I should join this, right now the reason are  I want join world youth day because I want to be a part from every catholic youth who praise God together. I want to enjoy their happiness when they praise God together as a catholic youth and also I wanna see Pope Francis live. LIVE on me.

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I must decide 2 weeks from now, because registration will be open from that, for everyone who had chance to join this don’t throw it, DO IT!

I hope I can decide wisely – Let God and Holy spirit guide us.

Amen.

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Jealousy

Today I was visit my friend at work which she had birth her first child. Everything seems fine until I hear the story about how her husband help her when she wants to give birth.

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Her husband office is out of town, it might be 3 hours from his place to his home, but because his wife want to give birth He was come with only 1 hours – I believe he was used maximum speed on his motorbike.

He said that He will do that because he loves and cant hardly wait to see his first child.

But the cute story not just ended on that, after he come, he help his wife to stroke his wife back, because his wife feeling pain so much when prepare the birth and he doing that with so much love.

 

“Love is sacrifice”

I was note on that way…

and she tell me how lucky she is to have that. Until my human attitude shown

“boomb – JEALOUSY”

I admit deep on my heart I was jealous, very jealous to her.

How to be not jealous,I’m single right now and I was dream to have someone like that, but thanks God that’s happen on a bit way because today I was read great article about how to dealing with jealousy by Pope Francis.

 

Pope Francis said when he jealous (I was surprised about this, He can be jealous too)

“When I am jealous, I must say to the Lord: ‘Thank you, Lord, for you have given this to that person’.”

 

Yes the gratitude to feeling jealous and after that I feel better. I was remember again that every story – every love story for each other was different just believe that my love story still on process by Jesus Christ and suddenly I feel calm down again.

 

Feeling jealous proves to us that we are human which have weakness, and because of our weakness we should know that only God can make us perfect.

So don’t feel guilty to feel jealous and don’t be feel jealous too long. Whenever you feel jealous remember what Pope Francis said.

 

May God protect and heal you from your weakness,

 

Ana

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